It started at 6am this morning with M waking up wheezing and struggle to breathe. The more he struggled the more he panicked the more he panicked the more he struggled. I stayed calm and tried to calm him. Gave him his pump. But in the end I called an ambulance his breathing was not regulating. It was getting worse. After a ride to hospital, a nebuliser, steroids and seeing several doctors we came home by 11. He was diagnosied with croup.
So right now I am getting more and more anxious as bedtime approaches. I know night time they can be worse. And my biggest aniexty is when the kids get sick.
But I can do this.
I can stay calm.
I can be in control.
I will need to chant this on repeat.
Over and out.