I arrived home all in one piece, slightly more weighed down with goodies, but in one piece.
It all kicked off Friday afternoon in the rather lovely venue of the Brewery. I arrived earlier as the women (and few men) lined the cobbled courtyard outside. Some catching up with friends, chatting to people they came with. And there was me. I came on my own and knew no one else ( well I speak to some on twitter or read blogs but no one I had made plans with to meet)
After an overwhelming walk around this crowded room full of people who all seemed to know one another I followed the crowd upstairs to sit down and listen to Kirstie Allsop keynote speech. Which was funny, made me laugh and made me think. Are storytelling style was comforting and friendly.
The evening portion on a Friday is the BiB awards and the wine was flowing. By this point in the day I felt tired, lonely, out of my depth and overwhelmed beyond anything I ever thought I would be. I am I think mostly a confident person but I felt that skip away from me during the day as my energy levels dipped I decided to make an early exit and leave the crowds to the wine.
As I travelled home I tweeted some of my feelings and thoughts. It seems I was not the only one who felt that way. I was glad to be home and see the hubby and the small one. To have cuddles and feel secure in my bubble.
I dusted myself down and attempted to boost my self esteem to take on Saturday. I already knew that I would be leaving early due to other commitments I had on today.
Some lovely local bloggers I had spoke to briefly were getting the train early and I made arrangements to meet them and travel up. This made all the difference at putting me at ease and making me feel less scared walking in on my own.
I listened to Katie piper talk, followed my a talk on finding your blogging voice, then an interesting talk on using your iphone to make videos before I not so interesting talk on smartphone photography (the speakers were great but I think I may be a bit more advanced on the iphoneography side than I initially thought)
Lunch again I bumped into the local bloggers. Again this made all the difference to have someone to talk to over eating and make me feel less like a Billy no mates.
All in all I enjoys my experience. I enjoyed being part of it. I learned a bit more about me than I thought I would. And I didn't think I would struggle with that side as much.
My tips for the future maybe attendee is make that connection with other bloggers beforehand. It makes the whole experience nicer. I lacked the social media links beforehand taking a break from blogging and tweeting as life was more important.
I do feel inspired. I've got notes made in my notebook of things I'd like to write about. I think this is what I want to try more. To write. So I will try and do this more. And focus less on the random posting but more on the words. Just maybe.
But that was just me. What about you?